well i haven't been on here for a while so i guess i'll update while i'm here.everything is all screwed up!!!! my nana had a stroke and is doing very poorly in health.i know she is 88 years old but she is one of those people that you expect to live forever and i know in reality thats not possible but i just don't know how i'm gonna handle it if i lose my nana. i had two good weeks while jessie was here but now i'm back into my miserable slump.i'm going crazy!!! i'm not going to be able to keep my car because sallys is screwing me so hard with my hours.thats why tomorrow i am going to aldi to apply for a new job.i feel like just wrapping my car around a tree sometimes! nothing ever seems to go right and it seems like nothing is ever gonna get better.well i hope everyone had a good christmas and a safe new year.maybe i should go take my "crazy" pill now............